I don’t think I need to expain again that I have been struggling lately. &. I am a little worried about the long term affects that this sad will have on me. &. I don’t really mean, like self esteem wise. & I’m not gonna like off myself (pls pls I beg of you pls do not send me asks about whether or not I want to commit suicide or suicide prevention information it’s really actually fucking traumatic to recieve it & I will permanently turn off all asks if I have to).
But anyway we aren’t talking about that. We are talking about me, slowly, being ruined. Because I think I might be, like being ruined.
Like. I’ve heard that “brats are anti submissive” for months around this place. & like. What happens to a submissive girl, that is constantly empowered? What about me, when everyone around me, is pulling for me. From friends & strangers & family, everyone is telling me that I am strong & able & capable? Like where, exactly, is this going to leave me mentally & emotionally once my sad is gone?
Are my friends’ love & support, anti-submissive?
Am I going to be anti-submissive?
Am I anti-submissive now?
You do realize all that “anti-submissive” talk is pure, uncut bullshit, right? It’s broad-spectrum gaslighting, not an insight into the human condition.
I mean, look… I personally find the whole brat thing kind of exhausting, but big fucking deal. At worst, that simply means that brattiness is anti-me. Your submissiveness is something inside you that you give to different people in different forms across the course of a lifetime, and you don’t owe the world some standardized expression of it.
Stop worrying about “doing it wrong”. And discard anyone who needs to invalidate your identity to make theirs seem real.