Calibrate your gratitude… I think you should feel lucky that he makes love to you instead of treating you like an insufficiently absorbent sock.
As for all those… ugly, greedy things he gives you, well, I’m sure he has a good reason for spoiling you like that. It’s as if he’s gaslighting you into believing that good girls have exhilarating, physically satisfying sex, rather than lives full of frenzied, desperate edging and the endless ache of denial and debasement.
He’s clearly a brilliant, evil man. Another reason to feel lucky, don’t you think?