You seem to like to dig deeper and fuck with her mind more than her body but have you very maintained a solely somatic relationship? Being used as a cumdump and nothing more turns me on so much, like fuck my feelings, fuck what I want, just use my body and thorw me away, call me only when yo need to unload
Purely physical interactions have never interested me at all… I’m not even sure I’m capable of them, since the meaner I am to someone, the more I grow to like her. And while my pity has an “off” switch, my curiosity does not.
When I think about it, I just don’t get the appeal of the whole “call me only when you need to unload” thing. If someone said that to me, I would hear a kind of egalitarian contempt in it… “I’m not into you, but being fucked by guys I’m not into is hot, so hit me up.” That’s definitely a brand of masochism, but not one that I’d enjoy.