It sounds like the biggest problem right now is the anxiety you’re feeling about everything… so as much as no one ever listens, I must nonetheless insist you relax.
It’s not helping, labeling what could be a quirk of personality or an emotional roadblock or a physical inconvenience with terms like “weird” and “wrong”… your sex drive is not a failing. It’s just something about you that you need to better understand and —if desired and possible— change. Try to be a little kinder to yourself while you figure this stuff out.
Given that you’re reading this blog, I know that’s asking a lot. But give it a shot. For me.