Is it possible to heal without giving in to the scary urges and without submitting to the pain?
Of course it’s possible! Get your butt to therapy, take the meds you’re prescribed, and avoid exposing yourself to the things that have heretofore made your cunt wet.
It won’t be easy, and it won’t be fun. But it is absolutely something you can do, if you decide that’s what you truly want.
Good luck, kid.