idk what youve done in my head again, but its like im 19 again avoiding college essays obsessing over your account again but no college essays to avoid just life stress now
(submitted by: Anonymous)
One of the strangest things about having a ten year old blog is that some of you have spent your entire young adulthood with me. I’ve been there, at every milestone.
You were scrolling through my archive under the covers in your childhood bedroom the summer before college, you were hiding me —and your noises— from your roommate in your dorm room, you came home to me when your dates didn’t work out, you spent a long, sweaty weekend rubbing yourself to me when your first Serious Boy cheated, you tried to imagine talking to me after you graduated and didn’t know what to do next, you escaped into me during your parents’ surprise divorce, you instinctively compared your new fiancé to me and cried a little over all the things he’d never be, you started rubbing in the bathroom with the light off after he went to sleep but it was okay because I didn’t know you existed, and someday you’ll stand next to the toilet looking at a positive test and realize that there was a different life within reach but you were never brave enough to grab it.
I wonder where you’ll end up after that? Hard to say.
But I know where you’ll be when you’re alone in the dark.