In my most benevolent moods, all I want for you girls is a little acceptance. Some of you could be so much more than cunts, but if you’re going down that darker road, everything else will always be a detour. They seldom win, those who fight what they are; that’s what makes the fight so noble.

But when a girl finally decides her back is against the emotional wall and she’s out of options, I want her to know that there’s someone out there who understands that nobility is a heavy mantle, who enjoys helping her fantasize about shedding that mantle, and who won’t be disgusted if she eventually rips it off for real and for good.

She deserves to know that her stories are valued, that even the most worthless of things can be prized by the right collector.

I would hate being small.

I would hate having a shrill voice. I would hate the oppression of attention. I would hate desperately craving the oppression of attention. I would hate working so hard to be pretty. I would hate feeling like a victim, and how familiar and calming that feeling can become. I would hate being drawn into the special gravity of wasteful, hurtful men, knowing that they only want to see me break apart and burn up on my way down. I would hate knowing that everything I will ever love will want to feed off me or destroy me.

But I love watching you give it a try.

I was trying to get something new posted to close out the year, and on a positive note, I *did* make some progress. Not enough, though; sorry, kids. Instead, I’ll simply wish you little fuck-ups a happy new year.

And may you get everything you so richly deserve.