Your blog inspired me to masturbate to memories of my rape. I’m that girl in your story. Fucking my fingers to the memory of him forcing himself on me. I came while sobbing for mercy. Thank you.

Good girl. Take that shit and own it; life gave you a weight to bear, and if you’re fortunate enough to wrench a little respite from your body now and then, hey… carpe-fucking-clitoris, baby.

And don’t forget to come back the next time you need inspiration.

how would you treat a girl who’s never had sex before? not even a kiss?

In my black little heart of hearts, would I love to be some chick’s first big mistake? Would I like to bite an untouched lip, look into her eyes, and savor the moment when her innocence dies? Would I delight in the opportunity to whisper little cruelties in her ear and lick the tears from her cheek as her body accepts the first of many invasions?

Oh, hell yeah. I’ll probably write something like that eventually.

But in practical terms, I’d feel reluctant. Being a girl in this world is tough, and being a twisted little pervert on top of that only makes it tougher; I’d recommend first giving plain ol’ fucking a shot, just to see if it’s actually more compelling than it looks. (Some weirdos folks swear by it.)

i really want to talk to you off anon but how does a 19 year old girl know she can trust you? after all, everyone tells girls to be careful of forty year old men with sex blogs..

Everyone is right. 🙂 You should always be careful, particularly when you’re nineteen, because nineteen year old girls don’t often know all the ways a man can hurt them. Bear in mind that getting yourself in over your head is hot, right up until the moment that it isn’t.

With that said, I’m not particularly scary. The younger you are, the harder you have to work to convince me to treat you as anything less than a young lady. I can be convinced, of course, but I’m not going to start shouting “STUPID CUNT!” at you just because you wanted to say “hello”.