“Creeps Like Me” – Lyle Lovett

Look around, and you will see
This world is full of creeps like me
You look surprised, you shouldn’t be
This world is full of creeps like me

Lyle’s late ’80s/early ’90s approach to his work had a huge impact on the way I view writing. He once said in an interview that there was something inherently satisfying about pairing richly orchestrated, “legit” music with absurdly contrasting lyrics… he was HiLoBrow long before it became hip, and it gave him lots of creative room to shift seamlessly from the funny to the macabre to the romantic, often within the same song.

Creeps Like Me isn’t the ideal example of his approach (that would be Here I Am from 1989’s Lyle Lovett and His Large Band), but it does make a nice theme song for this blog.

Cranky Old Man Shit: Photography

I’m going to get patronizing and paternalistic for a minute… yes, I mean more so than usual. Because I wish some of you crazy bitches could unilaterally reassess your relationship with photography.

Still photography is one of the most unnatural, inhuman inventions in civilization’s robust portfolio. Human bodies aren’t designed to be frozen in time and analyzed in minute detail; we’re all just unseemly, fleshy facades over a rickety scaffold, and only in motion do most of us come alive.

Now, the fact is that there are a tiny number of people in this world who look naturally at home when folded into the harsh little dimensions of a photo, and a substantially larger pool of others who have learned to seem at home where they are not. And if we all looked at what they create and said to ourselves “wow, what amazing talent,” shit would be grand.

But that’s not what happens. We instead conflate “taking a pretty picture” with “being pretty”, even though every fucking one of us has seen that screencap of Beyoncé at the Super Bowl, and thus have conclusive proof that even one of the most attractive women on Earth is fully capable of looking like a tendon-y nightmare-troll when her physicality is deprived of its flow and context. It isn’t Photoshop that distorts reality; it’s the camera itself.

Which is not a flaw in the technology, of course; it does something awe-inspiring in making art out of moments. But that’s what it always is: art, a constructed truth, a cleverly selected slice of life.

Nothing more.

“Secret Silken World” – David Baerwald

I took a ride with a sadist on a Saturday night
His teeth were like diamonds in the dashboard light
He knew a place nearby, we took a right at the light
and I smiled ‘cause I’d never, ever been there

David Baerwald’s A Secret Silken World is about the uncomfortable allure of a creepy old pervert who feasts on gormless youth, so yeah, I’m more or less contractually obligated to include it here.

She looked more like a plate than a scared little girl
Her pupils were pinpoints as he fingered her pearls
It was crossing my mind to maybe give her a whirl
until I noticed her fingers were trembling

I’m at 9,000 followers. Not bad, for a blog that’s as much a psychological and literary experiment as it is a porn dump.

To my fangirls: I don’t write you back as often as I should; I know this. But it doesn’t mean you don’t matter. Well, okay, most of you are trash who really don’t matter in any meaningful way, but thanks to my situational benevolence, you matter to me. You know what I mean? I guess I’m trying to say that, even though you’re a clutch of morally compromised cunts, you’re good people. If I could, I’d line you all up and walk down the row, patting your heads and slapping your faces. I mean that, sincerely.

As for those who keep sweetly, pitifully whining for more: if you want me sinking more time into this stuff, you bitches need to step up your game. Send me your money and compromising photos. Give me some incentive. Do you have any fucking idea how much mental effort and marijuana it takes to come up with this stuff? There’s an infinite amount of sex on Tumblr, but there’s only one me.

Respect the work, ladies… respect the work.

“You Do” – Aimee Mann

You stay the night at his house
With no ride to work
And I’m the one who tells you
He’s another jerk
But you’re the one who can succeed
You’ve only got to prove your need
And you do
You really do

One of the best movies of the ‘90s happened to have one of the best soundtracks, because Paul Thomas Anderson was smart enough to recognize and utilize Aimee Mann’s genius. Virtually every song is a gem, none more faceted or brilliant than You Do.

The sex you’re trading up for
What you hope is love
Is just another thing that
He’ll be careless of
But though there are caveats galore
You’ve only got to love him more
And you do
You really do