… Read the rest “”chosen family
i grew up in a broken home. it was cold, hostile, unstable and unsure. i never knew anything other than that i couldn’t trust anyone or anything; nothing good lasts; and any fleeting sense of security was surely false.
Tag: blossom
one day! ONE DAY during this, the year 2023, I will make it through the day without making a disgusting drippy mess of myself at work 🙇🏼♀️
No, you won’t.
… Read the rest “”pizza night
I’d spent the night repeatedly putting my foot in my mouth and as a result had ended up on my knees at His side while the adults carried on at the table properly.
He was holding me by my hair, gripped in His fist, tilting my head back.
… Read the rest “”security blanket
my sister gave me a gift, a soft pink pillow with a soft pink unicorn on it. It unzips into a soft purple blanket, and it keeps me safe and warm.
when I get lonely, I spend extra time with it.
it’s always daddy issues this, mommy issues that, but what’s the word for a when you spent your formative years being bullied, mocked and bossed around by your prettier friends and have a resulting desperate desire to just be a good baby for them, and earn the approval of the same people who sneer down at you and make a hobby of humiliating you 🥺
The word is “cunt”.… Read the rest “”
… Read the rest “”my heart sings and my cunt throbs at the quiet, calm command of His voice: “65. 70, then. 75. Okay, 80,” directing my sister to increase the intensity level of the shocks I receive.
I’m throbbing from the shocks too, but nothing in the world compares to what His voice can do.
Hello & Goodbye
Three individual cunts endured a cumulative 2,400 miles of flying and eight-ish hours of layovers to reach me last week. They all introduced themselves the same way: on their knees, with their lips pressed to the back of my hand.… Read the rest “”
… Read the rest “”sweet nothings
I was riding the edge for what felt like an eternity, despairing that I’d never get there and prove to be useless even in this. I wanted to do something right, but I was too overwhelmed to get there.
… Read the rest “”kiss & make up
the girls haven’t always gotten along, but Daddy’s there to help us be better daughters and better sisters – by whatever means.
….and it’s even more effective when in that moment you know for certain that she’s better than you are, and you’re lucky he’s letting her touch you.