…in the beginning I gave them a textnow number. I feel safe and comfy with them but kinda scared they wouldn’t understand why I gave them that number instead of my real number (based on past experiences)
How should I bring this up?
I can see why you’re nervous —you’ve kind of let this drag out a bit— but if your dom has any difficulty at all in understanding why you made the initial decision, you need a new dom. No well-intended person with any concern for your well-being is going to be upset that you didn’t go all-in from the start.
I mean, GASP! You didn’t instantaneously trust a stranger on the internet with personal contact information?! C’mon, kid, cut yourself some slack… that’s how normal people operate.
(Yes, in my world, girls give out phone numbers and GPS locations and compromising data without knowing so much as my first name… but I’m me, and the cunts who want to sit at my feet are far from normal.)
In your case, I’d make a point of emphasizing how much they’ve done to solidify your trust, and how much it means to you that you feel comfortable shedding those sorts of protections.